My freaky body

Anyone as tired of this as me? I bet not. On Friday my HCG levels had increased to 449. Not dramatic from 392 but still going in the wrong direction. I was rold to go back in today for another blood letting. On Saturday I had a handful of intense breath taking pains in my womb. I thought I'd have to go to the hospital but they didn't return. We walked around all day in Cambridge and did some errands. I now have a working borrowed blackberry so at least I can communicate. (but I have no idea how to use it so scratch that). I've had a slight ache off an on in my right side but nothing that made me worry. I've had far far far worse. I went back in today and my HCG has risen to 596. They took my pulse twice. Once manually and once on a machine. Both times it was 48. BP 119/75 What's up with that? I haven't been to the gym in a few weeks and I'm no Lance Armstrong.
Not the news I was hoping for but at least now we can get the ball rolling and sort out proper treatment. I'll go see the consultant tomorrow and discuss my options.
I'm ready for this to be finished but I know what is in store and they damn well better give me some codeine to numb me while I go through it.
My body is trying to give us a baby and it seems to really want to hold on to things that aren't viable. I gotta give it credit for trying at least. Mentally I am getting a bit more stable. It may not last long but I appreciate those who get it and are patient with me.
Kids are being adorable. I want to get this blog back to the happy diary of their childhood.

Will check back in tomorrow. xx