finally...

A diagnosis, well somewhat of a diagnosis after another scan. Ectopic pregnancy. Methotrexate has now been injected into the muscle in my bum. It's primarily a drug used to treat cancer but it's given to women with early ectopic in much smaller doses. My liver function needs to be tested in a few days and it will deplete my body of folic acid. We're also not supposed to try for a baby for about 6 months which I consider a good thing that has been taken out of my hands. I don't have to think about it and don't want to make a decision about another pregnancy for a long while. I'm feeling relieved that we've made the right decision after a lengthy discussion with my consultant. Now I enter into the unknown for the next week at least but it's a lot better than letting nature take it's course. Nature and me, we veer off course. Nature needs it's ass kicked sometimes. Whew.

Karen-I cannot ever thank you enough for staying with me all day and looking after me. I promise I did not develop kleptomania (much) while we were there. Somehow, you made it less painful and more giggly. I hope they do not have cctv. What happened in room number two stays in room number two ;-) Actually that makes it sound a bit dodgy!

Did you know that speculums have a precise labeling system? They come in Virgin, Small, Medium. Medium-Long, and Broad.

Also, did you know that if you leave Crocs out in the hot Texas sun they shrink by two sizes and curl up at the toes like Santa's elves shoes?

I'm relieved to begin the end of this. Tunnel, light, and all that. Saw a double rainbow on the way home. Cuddled my babies when they got home from visiting their cousins, grandparents, and aunt, and felt peace. A lot of peace. x