This weekend we lost capalina blueberry. I had some bleeding that started Saturday night. The staff in A & E were amazing and so helpful. They gave me a private room and bathroom away from the other patients and they did their utmost to be kind and gentle. They diagnosed a threatened miscarriage and arranged for a scan to be done today.
The scan revealed a lot of blood and a small mass of poc (products of conception) but because of the gestation period being 6 weeks, they couldn't detect anything concrete, i.e. a fetus. My blood work is showing I am pregnant with a low hcg count (around 380) as well as pregnancy tests but now the miscarriage is inevitable.
I knew there was a higher risk of miscarriage this time but I had such a positive vibe. Sadly, I was wrong.
The next step for me is to get some further tests next week and be referred to the recurrent miscarriage unit. Hopefully they can provide some answers. If I sound calm it's only because I'm on strong painkillers and I've accepted what is happening. I don't like it one little bit but I've accepted it. I was also very aware of my body and I think I knew a few days before the bleeding started. And did I mention the strong painkillers help a lot?
We've had a lot of highs and lows with pregnancy and miscarriages this year. It's time I had a rest.
Friedrich Nietzsche is right. That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
Nothing more to say now. x
(I have turned off comments for this post)
Posts
Digg
